Calculations Spelling Out 1 10/3 U

I can feel myself slipping under.
Oh, you’re the snake with a mind of God.
Tell me forever was never just temporary,
Because these days are lasting too short.
Stop spinning me till everyone’s the same,
You and I are only as unique as everyone else.
Friday night lights are just coming from my room,
And your out on the town
Turning lovers to doves that could fly to the moon.
Set me free.
Find me what I’m looking for.
I need to just let me go.

I’ve got a huge history project and with all these things upon my shoulders, it’s like love all over again. My sister’s got a boy whose chasing after her, and I’m here for the dust. Oh, avarice satire’s running me into walls. Churning until I wake up on the floor. Keep your head up, so you can look down at me from the top. I’m signing off now and giving up, can you tell me who I’ve done wrong? Curse me from the Garden of Eden; days are lasting too long. It’s the nights we care about.

Give me a few pills until I feel like a pin-up. Oh, it’s so much better from the hospital bed. Charcoal eyes for your scientific lies, validation for your grave. Fragments worth their every word; I could make you something beautiful. But would you feel any better then? Shots to prevent the inevidable. They’re laughing in your face. Frustration, dependance. It looks better down the barrel of a gun.

Viewers watching this plot play out, did I shock you yet? Our town is just voices in my head and Romeo is in Juliet. Oh, if you know what I mean… can’t get the police, they’ve got you on hold again. I’m the starting line for disaster and you finished with flying colors (in black and white). Boring only looks good on you. Cliche lines from these “LOVE ME!” signs; I’ve got desperate in my veins.

Pop on a ring till you convince yourself; 24 hours till death, do you part? Sending thank you notes for these scars. Blank and blue, I’ve got so much to say, but I just send it to you. Stop trying to interpret these words, they’re saying what they want. I’m a timeline for falling apart. Forgotten’s got so many things wrong. Pages are crumbling between these fingers that wish they could write such beautiful words. I just move you… farther and farther away. I have to get this out: I’m not so pretty and I can’t get myself to smile. Fake it till it’s broken, ’cause no one’s got caring on their lips anymore.

Sleep, take me. You’ve got this stained mirror. Find that warmth in your freezing sheets, we’re all that’s left now.

Less Than Three;
Rikki [is the aftermath]

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Calculations Spelling Out 1 10/3 U

Call Me The Scene Because I’m Always So Good At Playing A Part

I’m not quite sure what I’m doing anymore. These days are like your eyes and they’re making me want to just stand where I am for a little while. Let’s just stay on pause for a little while. Stare at the sky, can you reach it? When did we lose the time in a day for stargazing? I miss you, and I miss smiles. I miss childish fights that lasted a minute before we missed each other. I want those days back when we didn’t spread rumors and gossip was just six letters we couldn’t spell. When did we grow up so quickly? When did school begin to dominate our lives? Just stop for me. Dance in the street with me. Jump into puddles of rainfall dreams with me.

I’m feeling sick of these fast moving streets. I need to run through the flowers. I need to breathe in the scent of the newly washed linen. I just want to be able to wake up to the sun outside my window and look for a second. I need a second. A minute. A day. A year. Forever with you. Could we fall in love? Could we just be friends for a day? Complications could just melt my heart away. I’m tired of trying too hard to just impress the world. I want to be free. I want to fly. I want to be happy and all smiles like when we ran in the summer grass barefoot.

Can’t we believe in cooties again? Can’t we play freeze tag again? When did we get too old to cry? Oh, girlie, these days won’t wait for us anymore. Night to days to years later. Maybe we could melt away. Everafter isn’t so far away. When did it get necessary for us to use our indoor voices? Those days seem like lightyears behind us. Dear, don’t you miss me? Don’t you miss when you were my best friend? Don’t you miss when mornings meant seeing your shining face? Oh, I missed it all before it ended. Because these days aren’t waiting for me and I can’t cry for missing them. “We all have to grow up some day.” No, no. I won’t. Don’t make me, please. Oh, my heart can’t take this.

Remember the gold and blue. Remember me before I missed you. Will you ever see this face again? I’ve never seen that face for so long. Saturday mornings when they were filled with cartoons. Sunday mornings when they brought that special breakfast. Nights where mommies and daddies weren’t fighting. Back when the safest place was my parents’ bed. Oh, don’t make me lose you. Don’t make me let you go. People always leave. Leave me standing here for nothing. I can’t breathe in this sterile air anymore. I’m just the jealous type that needs you more than each day that passes us by. Let’s get back those “Hi…” folowed by a Blank Stare days. Four fights, four minutes to get back in the class room, four people in the bathroom at once, four minnutes till we all get to where we are.

Less Than Three;
Rikki [is your online confession]

Call Me The Scene Because I’m Always So Good At Playing A Part

Sad Face, Dark Star; By Morning They’ll Both Be Gone

These days aren’t looking so good
Not anymore
Every day is crashing into flashes of light.
I’m becoming every girl
I said I’d kill,
Is this going to kill me in the end?
Are you ready for the truth yet?
Ready to find out how fucked up I am.
‘Cause I’m not sure you see me anymore.
The corner of the room has got my imprint,
I’ve been hiding for so long.
Oh, this journey is painful, is it not?
Can you understand and stand next to me?
Because the days are lonely,
And I’m fantasizing about shadows.
Make me beautiful,
Make me kind,
Make me into every girl that’s got someone by her side.
I’ve got no one, I’ve lost nothing,
But this grief is eating me alive.
Burn my insides and take my shell to the mausoleum.
Scars of the people that always leave.
Stop light, go,
Just go and maybe you’ll find me alone every day of my life.
Sad frown, dark cloud
You’re always here for me.
Tell me there’s still some hope yet
I’m losing, losing my world to the red of my eyes.
Bleed and paint all of me red,
My head, my heart, my hands.
Cut me with your “arrow of love”.
Oh, Love is a one way street,
And it’s driving me no where fast.

I write an okay line every three years, but I look beautiful for the first day of my life. And it’s passed. And I’m slowly passing away. I don’t want to let you in. I don’t want to cry. For once, I want scream from the rooftops. “You can’t hurt me!” Oh, how horribly I lie. You can see right through me when I say nothings wrong. But don’t ask, these are my problems; it’s not your fault. I want to look in the mirror and smile; I want to see my face without crying. You’re more beautiful for every tear I cry and every frown I find. Oh, miss, you’re a model.

I’m losing the fight in my mind. They broke me. The tabloids won’t miss me and niether will the nobodies that lie and say they care. I know you, I know how shallow you are. I could drink you up in a sip. So, stop trying to fake a sympathetic smile. Your lies are more pathetic than mine. I’m angry. I’m naive. I’m faking everything I’ve got. Just drive me across this world and tell me the moonlight makes me beautiful. Liars are nothing but politicians, so don’t feel bad, dear.

Did you leave me for the taking ’cause you knew no one wants me? Did you write poetic songs so you could tell me I’m wrong? Can you just prove me wrong for once and put my back together. I’m a puzzle that been left in the dust. Forgotten. Forgiven? Oh, you can’t forgive me for these sins of mine.

Cut my throat for the best show on Earth. I’m already making it easy for you and I’m not even trying. Write new lines and give me a run for this heart. Please just give it back, so maybe I could pretend I don’t see you in my dreams. Oh, but dear, you are the dream. Dreaming about me, because that’s just my luck, ain’t it? You’ll be at your door, while I’m staring at mine hoping you’ll magically appear. ‘Cause just that magically delicious aren’t you? Forget that I ever tried to impress you and maybe you could make her happier. Damn my guilt, I could never cross that bridge for you, because she’s cutting me loose and telling me to choose. Oh, I chose damnit, but do I even know who won?

It’s for the best. But could the best get me a kiss from you? Guess my best shot just missed the basket and now she’s got who she wants. And I’m always right here where you left me. You left me at that night where heaven and hell pressed the remote, so I could just be on pause with you. I’m stealing lines from the movies and stealing smiles from cheesy car salesmen.

Please, just tell me I’m foolish, but you love me still. ‘Cause I love you crazy boy and we don’t need nouns and verbs to say that, now do we?

Less Than Three;
Rikki [is the scene]

Sad Face, Dark Star; By Morning They’ll Both Be Gone